I was amazed when Adya invited me to share the Dharma 17 years ago. It’s been an honor to take his invitation to heart and for all of us to “grow up” together.
Here are some new developments:
First of all, I am excited to announce that with the help of many hands a new website has been created. I am so grateful for the incredible help from Richard, Ditte, Michael and Christopher. Please see here what you think about it
Secondly, Adya gave me a Japanese Zen name Myoku, which means wondrous emptiness. When he told me the name, I was surprised how the sound of Myoku resonated and touched me. I’ll be using Marlies Myoku and probably over time will blend over into Myoku.
Thirdly, I invited Timothy Tillman to share the Dharma. I love Timothy. He is a very dedicated man and wonderful teacher. You’ll find his info here
Here is a question for you: Have you realized this is IT?
Truly, no outer force will come into your life to save you. We are the ones we have been waiting for. We are it. You are it! It’s time to delete the waiting and hoping for change mode.
Instead flush any leftover resistance to life thru the toilet. Notice where your Yes is to life. Listen and find out how She wishes to move as you. Always.
Let’s together deepen into our wondrous emptiness. The more we step in, even if we don't know how, but make ourselves available or accident prone as my first Guru told me. The only answer Life will have for us is, “YES, come on, let’s go,” and be ready to fall in all the way.
We are One connected tissue everywhere. Do you get it? Separation doesn’t exist except between your ears. Please read that sentence again: Separation only exists between your ears.
How about stop believing the mind’s thoughts? Yes, they are here. See them for what they are - energies in the form of thoughts. It is of absolute importance to be connected by bringing the attention-elevator down into your beautiful self and be still and taste the Sweetness of Being, which is the direct experience of Presence HerSelf. We need to do this over and over and over and over till we are “stuck” in our true being; not for just a second here or there, but every second and between every second - very simple and not always easy.
No matter what political viewpoint you may have – skin color or hair - we are all the same. Beauty radiating everywhere. As I mentioned in my last newsletter, we live in fortunate times. The darkness is getting darker and simultaneously the light is getting lighter. Consciousness wants to wake up to Herself everywhere and have as many experiences as possible. She is immensely creative and wishes to express Herself. That can and most surely will be very intense. So be it. That is it too.
Life provides challenges and opportunities to wake us up every moment. We are together in an evolutionary process of awakening. Through challenges awakening speeds up. The deeper stabilized your awakening the more you’ll affect the world.
Look out. Look in. Look everywhere. There you are. See and know yourself everywhere as the still, wondrous emptiness.
Sunday I am offering a one-day retreat in Aptos, in the Santa Cruz area. If you are far away and wish to join by Zoom, please send us an email at: email@example.com and you can join. It is an experiment.
There will be the weekly meditation, monthly satsang on-line and thru Open Circle. There is still some space in the erotic meditation retreat and also the wonderful Sayulita Mexico retreat.
I am excited in the moment and would love for you to come and join.
With a warm heart,
Welcome to 2017!
Please know we are living in fortunate times. I know a lot of you feel we are living in hard times. Yes, and still above and thru all we are living in fortunate times, because we have the opportunity to wake up to our true nature.
Waking up is a spontaneous happening. The settling of wakefulness into your humanity is a precious challenge and gift. My wish for all is to stay “home” and let the fire of truth and love burn away anything that doesn’t serve you. Of course that is easier said than lived.
Take any challenge in the outer or inner world; perhaps you have concerns about the political situation, your body or your relationship or money situation. These challenges help us to mature and die to what doesn’t serve us anymore. They are invitations and opportunities provided by Her.
For instance, in my life--as most of you know--I was born with a kidney disease. Even though the psychological overlay is gone, there is still the daily care that needs to happen so that I can stay around. I can get pissed or sad about it, but that doesn’t help very much when there is discomfort or when I need to prepare my dialysis machine. It is what is every day to keep me in this body, like brushing your teeth.
Two years before I started dialysis my nephrologist told me: “Marlies, you need to be on dialysis.” My answer: “I’d rather die than have dialysis.” One time I even told him to write down in his notes: “Marlies would rather die than have dialysis” so he wouldn’t bug me anymore. I was not very humble.
In early 2016 when I was bedridden and basically dying, he said: “Marlies, this is the last time. If you don’t go on dialysis you’ll be dead in 2 weeks.” Ooops. I let him know that I would sit with it…. of course, not too long. He said: “You do whatever you need to do. I am going to prep everything you need so when you are ready you can immediately take action.”
I arrived home. I sat in my bed. “Okay, what if I choose to die right now? Is there anything I need or wish to do?” Quiet…Very quiet… Deep peace came over me.
Well, that was clear and deeply sweet. I could just poof away in the eternal ethers then and there. I didn’t know what to choose or what wanted to happen and handed it over to my Unknown Lady and went to sleep.
The next morning I awoke still indecisive and peaceful. I had surrendered it. I refused to figure anything out. I went about my day, which meant eating, going to the bathroom and back to bed. There was not much else I could do.
Ring,.. The phone. I happened to pick up. “Yes, this is Dr. A. Your nephrologist told me to call to set an appointment for a port in your belly.” “Oh, hmm, well, okay, let’s set a time. Please know I am not sure if I’ll show up.”
I still didn’t know. Then, the dialysis nurse left a message. I waited a few days till I felt moved to call back.
It takes trust to let life unfold as She wishes. It is the only thing I am interested in. I could see how one tiny little thought believed sets heaven and earth apart.
Just know that your beloved true nature will free you in any way it can by bringing the blind stuff to the forefront to be seen and burned by the light of awareness. Let it take you. What remains is your beloved self that has been here all along.
Anyway, after a few days I felt moved to call Marilyn, the dialysis nurse. That was quite an interesting phone call and changed my life. I could feel her love and presence thru the phone.
I knew I didn’t want to do hemo-dialysis; way too harsh for my body. She shared about home-dialysis (PD-dialysis), how it partly detoxes the body with the use of fluids put into the belly. I spoke my reservation about the whole deal and especially how I wasn’t able to travel anymore. Marilyn told me: “Marlies you can travel.” Wow, that changed my outlook 180 degrees. Funny, all of a sudden I got totally excited. I had to laugh about myself. Well, Life had given me a clear answer. All doubt just vanished in a split second.
We met a few days later, which was an absolute delight. At some point she said: “Marlies, you are so relaxed.” I didn’t quite know how to answer that, hadn’t thought about it. “I guess yes. I am in the right place in the right time.” She looked at me, ”Marlies all people that come here are either nervous, angry, sad or numb.” Then she asked me what I did in life and that unfolded into a sweet conversation about the mind and the heart. Tears of preciousness flowed and our connection was sealed.
She shared another sweet thing that really touched me. Namely, my nephrologist had contacted her personally that she was the only one to work with me. That was very touching for me to experience his deep care, his love, genuine care and happiness when I am doing well pierce my whole being every time we meet.
Looking back at last year. Being completely on board with the experience given to me I got more deeply emptied. More left me. I am not sure what it is that left. Like a big burp that I didn’t know was there is gone. Deeper freedom. Deeper compassion for self and other; All of Life really. It just doesn’t stop.
Dear friend, please trust what life throws at you. It is an opportunity to more deeply love, more deeply be your beautiful radiant self and spread it everywhere.
Freedom is really nice for our selves. Truly the most amazing wonder of life is when that beauty and love start radiating everywhere. We can call it enlightenment in action or love in action. That’s what we are here for!
You are warmly welcomed to join in all that I offer. It is like the heart spilling over to share this love that we are.
Also, I am in gratitude for Ditte for all her loving and super assistance. Without her I couldn’t make my offerings in the world. And, of course Michael and Christopher are incredible assistants too who do so much work in the background. To all three of you I am so grateful!! I couldn’t do this without your support. And, all the people that welcome me in their homes to offer satsang, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Deep Water Sangha is like a little family in flux.
Thank you for your donations at the year-end fundraiser. Without your help it is hard to keep it all going.
Hope to see you in Sayulita-Mexico for the week-long retreat or Lake County, CA for the Erotic Meditation retreat or at any satsang organized with Open Circle or online with the weekly meditations or monthly satsangs and more….
All love and blessings for 2017!
With a warm heart,